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my thoughts and … thoughts
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So I’ve been medicated for bipolar type 2 for months now, and it’s been great for the most part. I’ve dealt with situations that would have broken me for weeks, my road rage is under control, I can focus … the list continues. I kind of feel like I may be existing in a more
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I used to use colored pencils exclusively when I was a kid, but for whatever reason, I stopped? I can’t really remember what caused me to drop them, and I’m pretty sure I still have my stash of pencils at my parents’ house … hundreds of pencils. I should probably look for them, yes? I
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Back when I was doing my Bubblegum Crisis challenge, I was a little disappointed in the lack of fan art, and although what I did find was spectacular, I kinda wanted to try my hand at it. This is the first result:
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I wasn’t sure how I was going to like this one because it’s the first time I’ve used watercolor powder – damn, that can get way more pigmented than you want if you aren’t careful! – but I’m actually quite happy with the result. I think I’m going to play with these a bit more.
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Since I started getting back into painting regularly, I’ve been obsessed with perfection. Like, if I got even the tiniest bit “wrong,” I would get frustrated and toss the painting or drawing or whatever it was. And “wrong” was always pretty arbitrary; sometimes it was perspective, and other times it was a slightly different color
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Since I wasn’t too thrilled with my self portrait, I decided that I was just going to do a little something that made me happy, which means … yep, back to my old shit. This one’s still untitled for the time being, but I’m heavily leaning toward “sun rays.” Anyway, along with school work, actual
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So I don’t think this is necessarily my best work, but! I’m playing with different styles now to see if I can incorporate them into my future pieces. Looking at this, it definitely does look amateurish, but hey, we all have to start somewhere, right?
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You know how I said I was reevaluating? Well, that particular mode of thinking has continued to take up residency in my brain, which led me to a bit of a Twitter storm of despair. I mean, it was only a few tweets in length, but the basic gist was that I have realized why
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Okay, so just as a disclaimer, at least one of the issues I’m about to talk about has resolved itself – thank god – and I’m in a much better place mentally than I was even a day ago. But so much of what transpired has me going deep into my brain and, like I
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So it went from this …
a little more juju 