I’m trying to remove myself from a lot of social media, or at least make sure that I have one place that’s mine, one area of the internet that I make and format and isn’t owned and run by a billionaire. So that means I’m going to be posting art on here a lot more than I have been. I’ll still have my artwork pages up for my best stuff, but I’m likely going to shut down my Facebook author page (I basically only use it to update my few followers about new posts on here) and maybe even Instagram at some point (less probable, but it’s on my radar).

And so here’s my first entry:

This is definitely not the best thing I’ve ever done – her eyes are all sorts of wonky and I did this freehand, which was A Choice – but! I’m starting to kiiiiind of get the hang of markers. It’s still not my favorite medium, but I’m not as antagonistic toward it. I’m still staunchly a watercolor gal, but with a bit more practice, I might actually learn to like markers?

I’ve mentioned this before in several posts, but I’m a perfectionist, so this is … hard for me to do without freaking out about fixing the issues I see or (what usually happens) just tossing this in the trash, but I see an improvement in my technique and need to get over showing people my mistakes. My plan is to continue posting sketchbook stuff – maybe I’ll even make it into a challenge later on in the summer, when I’m not freaking out about passing med-surg 2 – which will 1) desensitize myself to a lack of perfection in my work and 2) encourage myself to make art regularly.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned in nursing school, it’s that I have to take care of all aspects of myself, not just my physical health, and art plays such a huge role in my mental and spiritual health that, if I don’t do it, the likelihood that I will go back into a depression raises exponentially. So no matter how shitty what I make is, well … y’all are going to have to see it.

You’re welcome.

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So today, in another artist-focused “on rotation …” — Sofi Tukker is probably one of my favorite music acts, which probably explains why they show up on my “on rotation …” posts on a fairly frequent basis, and since their new album comes out in just a few days, I’m going to dedicate today’s post to them!

If you’re not familiar with Sofi Tukker, first of all, why, and second of all, I’m here to fix that for you. They’re an absolutely delightful duo who entertained me on a weekly basis on Tuesdays throughout 2021 with their House Tuesdays:

I didn’t realize how much I loved house/EDM music as much as I do until I started listening to them, and 2021 really cemented that love. I’m probably going to do an entire “on rotation …” house edition soon, but for now? Let’s take a listen at some of my favorite ST songs:

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After last week’s playlist, I got re-obsessed with Lena Raine, which is not hard to do. Ever since I listened to the soundtrack for Celeste (which is a great game, by the way), she’s been on my list of favorite composers, and I’m thrilled that she’s gotten more exposure since she wrote a soundtrack for Minecraft. Anyway, I’m not going to say much more and just let her work speak for itself:

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I know I’ve not been doing too many posts as of late, and I will blame nursing school for that. As much as I love learning, I am about ready to be done so I can read a book that isn’t related to medicine; my brain hurts and just wants to sleep. Even creating something artistic is exhausting, but I’m not going to get a break for a while. I’ll keep fairly cryptic about that until after finals for this semester, but let’s just say that the past three months have been rough on me.

Like … I’m fine? But I’m also overwhelmed and have a lot of thoughts regarding my worth and my need to try at anything anymore. It’s hard to be positive about your strengths when literally every single thing you do seems to be wrong, or at best, short-sighted or poorly planned. Take my desire to create a little garden this year: well, first we had unexpected frosts, and then a lot of rain, and then another frost; by the time it got warm enough for me to actually start things, I just had no motivation and couldn’t even figure out exactly what I wanted to do. I did plant some herbs, a banana pepper plant, and a strawberry bush in some pots, but I really wanted to create this whole herb garden on the side of the house, with mullein, lemon balm, lamb’s ear, goldenrod, etc.

I’m also having to reframe my life for myself because it 100% is not what I thought it was going to be. I mean, I’ve never had any idea of how my life was going to be, but I’d always assumed things would just fall into place and … be? I suppose, like my sister said, I could look at things from the positive side: how exciting it must be to have nothing tying me down, which is appealing to me on an elemental level; I could be anywhere, doing whatever I want. But I think the fear is that I will always be here: wanting but not moving because I don’t know how.

I thought I was improving with therapy and meds – I am, but I feel like there are plenty of deficits that I need to make up, obviously – but with setbacks and frustrations, I’m just discouraged and wondering if there isn’t more that’s wrong with me. Or maybe my bipolar diagnosis didn’t go far enough? I don’t know. But I’m feeling a depressive phase coming on, and I don’t really know how to handle it. It’s the first I’ve had since I started feeling the effects of my medications, so it’s a bit of uncharted territory. I have an appointment with my psych NP coming up, so I’ll be discussing it with her to see if maybe she has any ideas as to what’s going on. I just truly hate it here.

But I can’t just wait for more of the same, wishing that maybe things will be better tomorrow. What can I do today to ensure that tomorrow will be an improvement? I honestly don’t know, but I think I’m going to go play around with some watercolors. Art almost always gets my mood up.

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I’ve been listening to a lot of synthwave recently after I kind of wore myself out on Ani Difranco, Kate Bush, and Tori Amos, so … I’m sorry?

Actually, no, I’m not sorry.

This week is a super busy one, and synthwave is beautifully suited to so many situations – working out, studying, writing, painting, etc. – where you need to just be in the zone for extended periods of time. I mean, I finished an entire school project on Alzheimer’s with the The Prime Thanatos livestream and didn’t get distracted a single time.

So if you’re needing some background noise that’s also varied enough to keep your interest, take a look below for some inspo!

(Oh, and I also know I usually only do 10 songs, but I couldn’t choose between two songs and thus went with both.)

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